i'm sorry.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
3:42 PM
sorry ....for the things i've done to make you mad.
..for thinking that way.
..for not being able to understand you as well as i wish.
..for making YOU feel that way.
..for feeling inferior because i'm not as talented.
..for feeling pathetic cause i don't know what to do with my life.
..for feeling unpopular because the only ppl who add me on friendster are friggin foreigners.[with profiles in a language i don't bloody understand]
..for thinking that the whole world revolves around me.
..for thinking that i'm the only one with LSE.
..for thinking that i'm the only one with feelings.
..for thinking that i'm the only imperfect being on the face of the earth.
..for thinking that we have to use our blogs as a mode of communication.
..for pissing you off with my attitude.
..for thinking to myself sometimes why people like you. [i'm such a bitch]
..for thinking that everyone was being unfair.
..for..... everything.
it's just so hard not to feel the pang everytime someone i once knew call you name with more enthu. i'm being petty i know. but i know the same thing won't happen to you cause your ex-classmates don't know me [AT ALL].
it's just it's hard not to think that i'm not as physically attractive as you when i'm not the one who has had suitors [AT ALL].
it's just that i feel you are my role model yet i'm not able to match up with you [AT ALL].
it's just hard not to feel unpopular when i hear what happened to you that didn't happen to me in the states [even though you hate it] these things having never happened to me [AT ALL].
it's just i find it hard to accept that you could have been closer to the people i once.... 'loved'...
yeah so... forgive me... for being too pessimistic.. [or whatever word that stupid thing is..]
now... and yet again.. quoting you...
though not knowing if it's directed at me...
take you away, and i'm left with NOTHING.
i'm sorry....
... for being such a jerk.